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Taking Responsibility

When life or people disappoint us, we have a responsibility to remain stable and continue with CREATOR’s purpose for our lives.
Consider Psalm 94:12-13. Notice that it does not say that ELOHIM keeps us calm. It says EL gives us power to keep ourselves calm. We are partners with ELOHIM. EL’s part is to give us ability and our part is to be responsible. When a person is rude, selfish or mean to me I must remember that person is sick, undisciplined,  not spiritually fit. I must accept everyone is on their own journey and at a different point in their spiritual growth.

Responsibility means ‘to respond to the ability we have.’ An irresponsible person wants CREATOR or other people  to do everything while he/she does nothing except follow his/her  feelings. But don’t let your feelings run the show. When a person throws a a temper tantrum because they dont get their way, or are upset because someone is in their way, I must accept that person has more growing up to do and try to not judge them.for acting childishly. Until a person can be honest with themself and not allow their feelings to rule them, they will continue to act like a child because they believe acting this way will get them the result they desire. I have a learned a valuable lesson this week with my broken foot when I was totally disrespected while resting and my injury was totally disregarded because of a grown ups childish outburst, because she was upset. I use to be like this, but I have grown up. I can promise you: in the end you will feel much better about yourself if you take responsibility for your feelings than if you avoid them.

The GREAT SPIRIT cares for you, but CREATOR won’t do your part. SPIRIT  enables you to do it, but let me emphasize that CREATOR won’t do it for you! I dare you to stand firm, take responsibility and begin working with THE UNIVERSE to have the blessed life that is planned for you.

ELOHIM, Your Word says that You’ve given me the ability to remain calm. I receive that today. I won’t let my feelings run my life, and I will be responsible and respond the way You want me to. I will not allow others childish outburts or disrespect cause me to slip back into old behaviour s and ways. I am grateful for the undisciplined,  self centered people in my life for they show me what I DO NOT want to be..

Why we control

Everyone whether white, black, yellow, rich, poor or happy or sad are the same. In the basics of our nature we want a safe place to live, food for our belly and maybe a spouse or partner if we are called to such a life.

I like to control things, situations, and to my displeasure people who are close to me. It may be my ego, thinking I know what is best…for everyone. Which I do not. It may be the desire to help others and show them how I got to the place im at…but with such a fierce devotion to self and my beliefs.
Humbly ive accepted my control issues, my helplessness when it comes to others.

My faith has grown as my depression as circled me, a blanket of questions unanswered.  A place of fear that I seem to be unable to explain…a knowing of peace thru prayer and meditations and faith in the higher power.
Today I trust this process and I admire my sense of prescence.


motivating oneself…






The daily task of getting one’s mind right is not always easy. I awaken each day and spend some time in silence plugging into the source of all. Some call it God, YHWH, ELOHIM, Mother and Father, Great Spirit and many other names for the Creator. In this morning quiet time  I may read from the Bible, Just for Today or another source of positivity for my spirit. Zig Ziglar says motivation is like bathing it does not last forever so he recommends it daily. I love the idea of daily filling myself up with motivation. Setting goals is crucial to success whether it be financial, personal or spiritual. How can you possibly achieve something if you do not know what it is you wish to achieve?Image


my song HOP TO BE HIP

This song was recorded in Appleton at Raw Riddle Records, with ITCHII IDEAZ,. Music video was shot at Caffe Espresso, my favorite Green Bay Restaurant.




A study in Attraction WHY WE LIKE WHAT WE LIKE



Why Do We Like, Who We Like?

Mary Kay Elsner

Grand Canyon University

October 19 2013
















Attraction is what makes someone or something intriguing to us as human beings. The manner of how and why people are attracted to one another is a very fascinating and confusing topic for discussion. Accordingly, people desire to be wanted and loved, sometimes loneliness can have an ill effect on those who do not connect with others. Proximity Effect, Mere Exposure Effect and Social Exchange Theory will be looked at within this paper, as well as what is beautiful and attractive. There is a difference in an intimate relationship with physical desires being met, as compared to a platonic friendship between people. Likewise, reciprocity is crucial to healthy relationships and can be determined by what each individual is gaining from the relationship. Different people have different ideas of what is attractive and worth investing in when it comes to friendships and relationships.

            Keywords: attraction, reciprocity, social exchange theory







Attraction: Why Do We Like Who We Like?

            A woman with an hour glass figure, tiny waist and long black hair walks into a room wearing a red dress and four inch red heels and people turn to look at her, why? What is the reason that this woman is beautiful? Is the red dress the reason because it is an eye catching color or is this woman attractive for multiple reasons? According to Saul Kassin in Social Psychology human beings have a need for affiliation and as human beings we are drawn to each other like magnets (Kassin, 2010).  The question is what attracts one to another? Aesthetics are important when it comes to what each individual finds attractive, pleasing to the eye, gentle on the spirit. The Proximity Effect states being around someone enough can ignite attraction, however the Mere Exposure Effect states the more you are exposed to a certain stimulus the more positive of an effect it can have on you (Kassin, 2010). Social Exchange Theory look’s at reciprocity as a key factor in how long and how deeply we let a relationship go based on the even exchange of rewards and outcomes each person receives in the relationship (Nakonezy, Denton, 2008). Attraction defines if we choose a meaningful friendship, an intimate marriage to a person, or a casual friendship.

Humans Desire for Connection

            People desire to belong, whether it is to a group, a church, a family or a partnership human beings are social beings. Dan McAdams calls this social motivation the need for affiliation, (McAdams, 1989) which is a desire for people to establish a connection with others. Of course, everyone is different in their desire to belong and how much social interaction they have. Likewise, people will make friends and choose lovers based on attractiveness and what can be gained by any given relationship. In Zick Rubin’s scale of liking and loving published in 1970 studies looked at how much a couple liked or loved one another based on a series of questions and they found those who loved the other person rather than just liked would spend more time gazing at one another than those that liked someone (Grohl, 2007). People will connect to those they feel an attraction to based on what they find attractive. For this reason, knowing how much social interaction a person desires and the kind of people they are attracted to will assist them in finding friendships and romantic relationships that last.

            At the same time, people need other people in times of trouble. When a death occurs in a family people come to the grieving person’s home almost immediately upon finding out about the death. People lean on one another in times of grief and in times of stress. When choosing a support squad or a group of people we desire in our lives the decision is based on many factors of what makes an attractive friendship. Characteristics of the person help in the decision making process of whether there is the possibility of a friendship or a romantic relationship. Is the person trustworthy? Is the person honest and reliable? Is the person nearby geographically? The proximity Effect and the Mere Exposure Effect can help with understanding why we like who we like.

The Proximity Effect/ Mere Exposure Effect

            According to Kassin (2010), the best predictor of a relationship starting is how much people are around each other. When people work together day after day they get to see what a person is really like and can make a judgment as to their level of relationship with this person. Among work environments and neighborhood relationships people are around each other more than just seeing someone once a week at say, church or a weekly outing. The church a person belongs to as well as the neighborhood they live in determines who will more than likely become close friends and possibly a partner for life. According to the article, The Science of love popular among female students (2012), author Nishidoji reports on a teacher, Morikawa who has been giving lectures on the study of love since 2008. Morikawa believes a person’s employment status is one of the most influential factors when seeking a mate for a long term partnership (Nishidoji, 2012). This would align with the Proximity Effect since most adult’s work a minimum 40 hour work week, and quite a few marriages have been started in the workplace. Humans have a need to feel connected as discussed earlier and the work place offers a place to spend a lot of time with a person.

            The Mere Exposure Effect is a phenomenon founded by Robert Zajonc in 1968 that states the more a person is exposed to something the more positive effect it has on them (Kassin, 2010). Zajonc believed that even though a person is unaware of this effect it does happen and can affect who we are attracted to. For example, a person is attending a large University where they pass a person in the hall often and after two semesters they have a class together, this exposure previous to class could lead to the person wanting to work with this person or choose them in a group situation. Being exposed to someone over and over, yet not necessarily engaging in conversation or physical intimacy can lead to a feeling of comfort between individuals (Zajonc, 1980).  Another interesting discovery in the topic of attraction, that seeing someone or being in close proximity for a length of time, can start a romantic relationship or a close friendship.

What defines Attractiveness?

                        A man finds a woman at work rather pleasing to his eye and yet his best friend states she is not that attractive. What causes the difference in these two men’s opinion is a difference in what is pleasing to each. Studies have shown the media has a huge effect on what Americans find attractive based on marketing schemes, magazines and the easily accessible world of pornography on the internet (Jacobs, Renken, Cornelissen, 2012). Women have an unrealistic set of expectations as to what their body should look like based on air brushed super models and sexy advertising gimmicks. For example to make a Hardees burger look bigger the advertiser will use a tiny model to hold the burger, so proportionally the sandwich looks huge next to the tiny face of the actor. Men tend to be more attracted to the hourglass figure in a woman rather than the athletic body type. Marylyn Monroe was a size 14 and had an hourglass shape and was one of the sexiest women of her time, today the models are a size zero or one. Over the years what is considered attractive has changed in the media, however men still prefer a woman with some meat on her bones according to recent polls in America (Jacobs, Renken, Cornelissen, 2012). 

            Indeed human beings are more drawn to a beautiful person than an average person, in most cases. Of course, there is never a for sure answer in every situation as to how a person will respond to another person’s looks or personality. Attractiveness is a complete package of physical appearance, voice tone, clothing and mannerisms. In Social Psychology, Kassin talks about the, what is beautiful is good stereotype and it simply means that physically attractive people also have good personalities (Kassin, 2010). Is this true in all cases? Absolutely not and can be very misleading if people would just automatically assume a beautiful person is trustworthy, hence the saying a wolf in sheep’s clothing. People are attracted to one another for a variety of reasons and no two people will be able to explain exactly why or what it is about the other person that may have drawn them together in the first place. There are many books, movies, songs and plays about love and understanding love and why people are attracted to who they are. The Social Exchange Theory attempts to explain why relationships fail or are successful.

Social Exchange Theory

            The Social Exchange Theory simply states that people want to gain from their relationships more than they lose in them. In marriage this is true for a woman choosing a husband; she wants a man who can help pay the bills and helps her to feel beautiful and loved. If a man cannot pay at minimum his half of the bills and she is struggling to support him, he may not be the best choice in a husband and this may make him unattractive in her eyes. When two men are becoming friends and decide they want to be on a dart league together if one of them is horrible at dart’s this may make him unattractive as a partner in a competitive league, so a different partner may seem more pleasing. Rewards and costs is what the Social Exchange Theory breaks down to in its simplest form. According to Edward Lemay and Margaret Clark in the article Projection of Responsiveness to Needs and the Construction of Satisfying Communal Relationships (2007), supporting one another is very important in the success of a communal relationship. A communal relationship is when a couple or two friends fulfill each other’s needs over a period of time and they have an understanding that each other will be supported. This is a form of social exchange; one supports the other in times of need. Communal relationships can be marriages or long time friendships that last many years. Successful marriages and friendships that last decades are long lasting because it is advantageous to both parties to stay in the relationship. Attractiveness embodies more than just physical looks; it is a combination of different parts of a whole that causes a person to desire a relationship with another.

            In closing, attractiveness is the quality that causes an interest in another person and can have so many different variables. Humans desire a sense of belonging and a need for affiliation (McAdams, 1989), which causes them to interact with others. Who people choose to spend time with and invest in depends on the rewards and costs of becoming close to a person. If two people are in close proximity to each other they have more of a chance of becoming friends or lovers than if they lived in different cities, this is known as the Proximity Effect. If a person is in contact with another person often they may be more likely to become fond of that person as seen in the Mere Exposure Effect.  What is attractive to one human is not always going to be considered attractive to another and if you are losing more than gaining in a relationship with a person, that person may become unattractive in a very short period of time. Truly when discussing what is attractive, beauty truly is in the eye of the beholder.










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family ties? or family lies?

My family on my fathers side use drugs-I don’t


I have been clean for 3 plus years-

aunts and uncles don’t like me recovering because their own addictions stare them in the face.

I am clean.

My dad is clean. My mom is clean.

My aunts and uncles,judge, use and abuse,,,

why do I feel so sad for members of my family that are not true—-

not nice—-not honest—

my family.

suppose to be thicker than water the ties that bind–as i grow older my family is chosen====my christian friends, my spiritual friends..

these are the people who mend/


I will not be defined by the strength of the lies that the family ties have weaved around me

I will not be contained by the chains that have held me in shame from their lack of respect they show me.

Today is the day I release and relieve myself of the aunts and uncles who judge but don’t know



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